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Erev Rosh Hashanah: I misplace the keys to my parents' house and cannot help with the cooking as early in the afternoon as planned, but my brother and his family turn out to have been laid low by some opportunistic bug (the preschool year has started) and don't make it for dinner after all; my father drives their roast chicken and their challah and their honeycake out to them in the evening. We eat ours after I light orange taper candles that technically belong to Halloween because that's what's in the house. The chicken is brined and stuffed with lemon halves and fresh rosemary; the huge round challah with honey drizzled lightly over its egg-washed crust is from Mamaleh's; the honeycakes are homemade and the twice-baked potatoes were introduced by [personal profile] spatch and me. I know it is not precisely the customary use of the Shechecheyanu, but I find it useful to have a prayer thank you, God, that we've made it this far. The year starts anyway, ready or not. I'd rather recognize it as it goes by. L'shanah tovah, all.

don't worry cause no-one saw me fall

Sep. 19th, 2017 07:22 pm
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I aten't dead! Had a benefits-related wobble yesterday. I have to complete a form every year to confirm if any circumstances (addresses etc) change. They don't. The form takes me ten seconds for me to tick, sign and date. For the last three years the office I send the form into have written back claiming it hasn't reached them: please complete another by x date otherwise your benefits could be stopped. It doesn't help they use business-class second post, which can take a week. This time they sent the letter three weeks after I'd posted the form, despite the DWP texting me to confirm they had received the form. Ugh. Had to go into my local jobcentre to sort this out and to be fair the lady who dealt with me was nothing but lovely and helpful. Told me to redo the form, offered to send it by internal post, and did me a photocopy just in case. People I can talk to I can deal with. The faceless bureaucracy is what does for me.

In nicer news I had a lovely weekend date with [personal profile] cybermule . A fairly quiet one, which is what I needed. We meandered through Wooton-under-Edge, which for a sunny Saturday was dead. The charity shops for once didn't yield much. But then she took me for a wander up my first sunken lane, just under the Edge! A canopy of oaks high overhead: steep earth banks. Knotted ivyboughs snaking up the trunks. The air cooled by quite a few degrees as you went in. A storm had grazed that part of the country just a few nights before and H pointed out where some trees had fallen since her last walk there. There was something poignant about the scatter of acorns and branches on the lane. A good pub at the base of this walk with a vineyard behind it in a little bowl of land, though I didn't do myself any favours by mistaking the tender of the vines for a scarecrow. They were burning what I think were laurel branches at the edge of the car park: little flame but a lot of sweet smoke. We also watched the documentary Being Alan Bennett (2009). There's something wrong (but hilarious) about watching AB sing Larkin's They fuck you up, your mum and dad to the tune of Last of the Summer Wine. I miss H badly.

I'm rereading a lot of Caitlin Kiernan's short stories as background to an article (just a short overview rather than an essay) I'm writing on her work. I rediscovered a couple of albums I thought I'd lost, radio sessions by Tunng, Scott Walker's Scott V which was a present from Joel and a wounder to mislay. Today was too cool to count as Indian summer but the trees along the Stratford Road were brittling into green-gold. A cloud like ginkgo leaves up in the blue.

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On the one hand, A Matter of Life and Death (1946) is my least favorite Powell and Pressburger. It's a superlative afterlife fantasy in the tradition of Here Comes Mr. Jordan (1941), which is the problem: it's the Archers doing, excellently, a kind of story other people do. I don't hate it. I like the premise, which flips the opening glitch of Jordan so that instead of snatching a man untimely into the afterlife, a psychopomp lets his assigned soul slip away into the world; I love its filming of Earth in color and the "Other World" in black and white, whence Wim Wenders and his Berlin angels; I really love its double-tracking of the plot in both mystical and medical registers and the way it refuses to resolve one over the other, eventually, rightly merging the two. I have always suspected that after the credits roll, somewhere among the stars Marius Goring's Conductor 71 and Edward Everett Horton's Messenger 7013 are gloomily comparing notes on their respective balls-ups and wondering if Alan Rickman's Metatron was right that angels can't get drunk. It has one of the great escalators of cinema. It's objectively good and I know it's widely loved. But it's easily the least weird thing the Archers ever committed to celluloid. I can't tell if its otherworld is deliberately dry or if my ideas of the numinous just for once parted ways with the filmmakers', but I found more resonance in the real-world scenes with their odd touches like a naked goatherd piping on an English beach, the camera obscura through which Roger Livesey's Dr. Reeves watches the town around him, or the mechanicals within mechanicals of an amateur rehearsal of A Midsummer Night's Dream, than I did in the monumental administration of heaven and the courts of the assembled dead. I watched it in the first rush of discovery following A Canterbury Tale (1944) and as many other films by Powell and Pressburger as I could lay my hands on; I was disappointed. It didn't work for me even as well as Black Narcissus (1948), which I want to see again now that I'm not expecting real India. On the same hand, the Brattle is showing a 4K DCP rather than a print, which means that I'd be settling for an approximation of the pearly Technicolor monochrome of the Other World, which is still astonishing enough in digital transfer that I really want to know what it looked like on the original 35 mm, and the same goes for the rest of Jack Cardiff's cinematography.

On the other hand, the screening will be introduced by Thelma Schoonmaker and this is how Andrew Moor in Powell and Pressburger: A Cinema of Magic Spaces (2012) writes about David Niven as Squadron Leader Peter David Carter, the pilot hero of A Matter of Life and Death (look out, textbrick, for once it's not me):

Never an actor of great range, Niven came instead to embody and to articulate a rather out-of-date ideal: gentlemanliness – or 'noblesse oblige'. His light tenor and gamin beauty are those of the nobility: he reveals, if provoked, the upright steeliness of a man with backbone, but this grit often shades over into a likeable, smiling insolence. Though we knew he could be naughty (and the actor was a noted practical joker), it was the forgivable naughtiness of a well-liked schoolboy It is usually his graceful amusement that impresses, rather than his physicality or intellect (to talk of 'grace' might seem antiquated, but old-fashioned words like that seem to fit). He could be the younger son of a minor aristocrat, at times silly but always charming, and in the last instance gallant, gazing upwards with a sparkle in his eyes, a light comedian who, through sensing the necessity of nonsense, is perfect as Phileas Fogg in Around the World in Eighty Days (Michael Anderson, 1956, US). He is fittingly dashing in The Elusive Pimpernel (Powell and Pressburger, 1950), where as Sir Percy Blakeney he embraces foppishness with gusto. His 'airy' quality is winning, and his poetic virtues shine in AMOLAD. He may be well-mannered and eloquent but, as charmers go, his 'classiness' sits easily . . . He is undoubtedly an affectionate figure. Unkindness is not in him, and he is important in our gallery of heroes. But he is never like John Mills, the democratic 1940s ' Everyman'. Mills is the boy next door to everybody and, while that is a nice neighborhood, we really aspire to live next door to Niven. Is it a question of class? We suppose Niven to be a good host of better parties. Mills is like us; Niven is exotic. Cometh the hour, cometh the man, and during the war Niven stood for some of the most valued of principles, but his quality (or was it just his prettiness?) seemed the stuff of a previous, and probably mythical, time. Niven himself was a Sandhurst-trained army man, who joined the Highland Light Infantry in 1928 and served in Malta for two years before drifting towards America and into film acting. In 1939, when he left Hollywood for the army, he was a star, and managed to complete two propaganda films during the war while also serving in the Rifle Brigade . . . In the opening sequence of AMOLAD, it is hard to think of another actor who could mouth Powell and Pressburger's airborne script so convincingly. Bravely putting his house in order, saying his farewells and leaping from his burning plane, he is ridiculously, tearfully beautiful. Notably, it is his voice, travelling to Earth in radio waves, which first attracts the young American girl June, not his looks, and later it is his mind which is damaged, not his body. It is difficult, in fact, to think of the slender Niven in terms of his body at all. We remember the face, and a moustache even more precise and dapper than Anton Walbrook's (which was hiding something). Like Michael Redgrave in The Way to the Stars, he is the most celebrated man of war – the pilot who belongs in the clouds.

So I'm thinking about it.

When the screams rage, shake it off

Sep. 18th, 2017 12:33 pm
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I have just learned that Stanislav Petrov died in May and I feel this is a bad year to lose a man who knew how not to blow up the world.
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Plans to spend the day outside were somewhat revised on account of incoming holidays and I have the kind of headache that is barely a light sensitivity off from a migraine, but I can totally recommend the experience of baking ten honeycakes (and eighteen honeycupcakes) for Rosh Hashanah and then lying on a couch to finish reading the second half of Ruthanna Emrys' Winter Tide (2017). It's good at ocean, good at alienness, good at different ways of being human; it braids different threads of Lovecraft's universe without feeling like a monster mash, although the nature of monstrosity is one of its front-and-center concerns; it has a queer romance around the edges that I'm delighted is canonical. Technically I suppose I could have timed it to fall during the Days of Awe, but that might have been too on the nose. Also, I would have had to wait.
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I spent most of yesterday out of the house and not at doctor's appointments, which was a much better ratio than most of the rest of this week; despite an almost total failure to sleep at night, I am about to endeavor to do the same today. Two writing things, one not.

1. Yesterday's mail brought my contributor's copy of Not One of Us #58, containing my poems "The House Always Wins" and "Dive" along with fiction by Patricia Russo, Rose Keating, and Mike Allen and poetry by Mat Joiner and Holly Day, among others. The theme of the issue is fall. Not One of Us is one of the longest-running, most stubborn black-and-white ink-and-paper 'zines in existence and I am deeply fond of it, with its inclusive themes of otherness and alienation; it is where I published my first short story sixteen years ago this month. If you have the fiver to spare, I recommend picking up a copy. The editor and his family have a cat to support.

2. I am very pleased to announce that my novelette "The Boatman's Cure," heretofore available only in my collection Ghost Signs (2015), will be reprinted in a future issue of Lightspeed. If you have not read it and want an advance idea of what it's like, it was reviewed by Amal El-Mohtar when the collection came out. It has ghosts and the sea and personal history and classical myth and periodically I wonder if it counts as a haunted house story, although it was not written as one. It carries a lot of significance for me. Rest assured that I will link when it goes live.

3. I was not so pleased to hear that Harry Dean Stanton has died. As one can do with character actors, I seem to have conceived an incredible fondness for him over the years despite never seeing him in any of his really famous roles; I have good memories of him from Dillinger (1973), Alien (1979), and Twin Peaks: Fire Walk with Me (1992). I probably have Paris, Texas (1984) or Repo Man (1984) in my future. I had not realized he was 91. He was a sort of weatherbeaten middle age for so long, I just figured it was his natural, permanent state.

I'm the guy you buy

Sep. 17th, 2017 03:58 am
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I met my father this afternoon for a matinée of Tony Gilroy's Michael Clayton (2007) at the Brattle Theatre. I had not seen the film since it was released and it really holds up. It's a character study interlocked into a tight ensemble drama; it has classic bones and no guarantees. I can't say it's the best acting George Clooney has ever done only because I love so much his perfect '30's leading-man turn in O Brother, Where Art Thou? (2000), but he's human-sized here, bruised and ambiguous, a man whose finesse with dirty deals and laundry has never made him more than a "janitor" to the swanky law firm that declines to offer his blue collar a partnership, no matter how sharp his suits or sealed his lips. Tilda Swinton almost certainly deserved her Oscar just for ruthlessly suppressing her natural air of the numinous, substituting flop sweat and a queasy determination that would be admirable if it weren't in service of corporate exploitation that can't even be written off as cartoonish, it's so routine and successful. I first noticed Tom Wilkinson in this movie, having a spectacular version of Clooney's own moral jolt: a glittering manic break in the middle of a tricky class-action suit, precipitated by an inconvenient access of conscience, also going off his meds. Other character actors have made themselves visible in the decade since, each sketching in some angle of the title character's world and the aggression, anxiety, weariness, and anger that principally define it (hello, Denis O'Hare, Sean Cullen, Sydney Pollack, Bill Raymond, oh, good God, Ken Howard, that was you). Other ways of living swing elliptically through the story. Good luck getting hold of one of them.

Looking at the film now, I am not surprised that I fell in love with it ten years ago, because it is, in addition to a kind of chamber corporate thriller, an essentially noir narrative. Its chief concerns are people's prices and limits, how far they'll go and for whose sake, whether there is such a thing as redemption or whether some stains go too deep or whether it even matters so long as just here, just now, just a little, the damage stops. It assumes institutional corruption and personal complicity without making them anyone's excuse. It asks real ethical questions and proffers no pat answers. I've never seen it counted among modern neo-noir and I'm wondering if people miss it because it eschews the style: there are no cigarette contrails or Venetian blinds, but all the philosophy is there, the starkness with which the void can suddenly open beneath you. It's never didactic; it would be dead in the water if it preached. The longest speeches belong to Wilkinson and as his character says shruggingly, "I'm crazy, right?" But it makes its audience notice the inequalities, how being useful is not the same as belonging, how suffering in aggregate can be business as usual until a face turns it into personal crisis, how the woman in the boardroom is the one out on the branch that can be sawn off at need (which does not absolve her of the actions she takes to cling there), and without playing games with audience satisfaction it ends with a move into the appropriate total unknown. It's not grimdark, because good noir isn't. It just doesn't promise anyone they'll make it out—even metaphorically—alive.

I am being evasive about the plot because it's good: it knows that a car bomb and a photocopy can be equally explosive, but the renunciation of empathy is more killing than any chemical. I didn't realize the writer-director had also written four of the Bourne movies, although I feel I should have been able to guess from the scene with Clive Owen in The Bourne Identity (2002), or that he co-wrote the script for Rogue One (2016), which is less immediately obvious to me. I can't remember if I knew that cinematographer Robert Elswit had previously worked with Clooney on Good Night and Good Luck (2005), where I discovered David Strathairn, Frank Langella, Ray Wise, and Dianne Reeves, started to notice Robert Downey, Jr., and finally differentiated Jeff Daniels from Jeff Bridges; he gets some beautiful shots out of ordinary things and some horrifying ones out of the same, like a glossily deserted, fluorescent-lit office building late at night that seems to be waiting for J.G. Ballard. I wish Clooney had won the Best Actor he was nominated for; I don't still randomly think about Daniel Day-Lewis in There Will Be Blood a decade later. I think the best compliment I can pay this movie is that even if I think of it as noir, I don't think it would have been better filmed in 1949 with John Garfield or Dan Duryea. This memo brought to you by my valuable backers at Patreon.

Weekend todo

Sep. 16th, 2017 03:11 pm
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Friday
7.15 CoDA meeting
Get gas


Saturday
Meditation
Laundry
Dishes

Prepare super bills for submission to insurance company
Water garden
Pay car registration

Sunday
Bunday
Meditation
Weekly prayer

Incoming snail mail
Fill medication organizers
Fill snack containers
Make tea bags
Pick up kitchen and living room

Monday
Reschedule doctor's appointment for next month. 
Make lab appointment
Call PAMF to make sure I canceled appointment 
7.30 ACA meeting
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[personal profile] ashlyme, I have seen your Pan of the brownfields. He was in Derek Jarman's The Last of England (1987), a bare-chested, leather-jacketed heroin punk atop a mound of ruined brick, the post-synched soundtrack playing a delicate melody in the midst of burning warehouses, fascist soldiers, forty-year-old home movies, Thatcherite apocalypse. He has a round-chinned face, an Elvis-black kiss-curl, tattoos on his arms; in the credits he is named "Spring." He shoots up, smokes, smashes things, has sex with a life-sized copy of Caravaggio's Amor Vincit Omnia while the cinematographer's shadow, maybe Jarman's own shadow, lies across them both. His scenes are all filmed in the slow-blurred, smokily tinted Super 8 grain of The Angelic Conversation (1987), of which he might be the darkening reflection: the angel in the fallen world, with no last trump to liberate him into the arms of his beloved. Everything in this film is apocalyptic, but very little of it is revelation. Maybe Tilda Swinton at the very end, rending with scissors and even biting her wedding gown to pieces as a pyre streams behind her on the sunset riverbank; she whirls in bridal ruins, fire and grief, I think of Shiva Nataraja, I have no idea if Jarman did. He wrote a book of the film, which is currently available under the title Kicking the Pricks (1987). I don't have it. I have this headful of images like stained glass windows, smashed and burning. Or channel-surfing on William Blake's MTV.

I was five minutes late to the theater, which I count as an achievement since at Downtown Crossing the Red Line had decided that it would prefer not to; [personal profile] rushthatspeaks and [personal profile] nineweaving had saved me a seat and I came in just as Nigel Terry doing his best BBC switched from Allen Ginsberg's "Howl" to T.S. Eliot's "The Waste Land." (My memory is that this produced the line "I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed not with a bang but with a whimper," but I don't actually think that happened.) It's even more of a cut-up film than Jubilee (1977), working with many of the same furious themes but even more abstracted here. It plays aggressively with time, slowing, skipping, echoing, blackout and shell-shock and dream. (We ran out of time when we ran out of history, here at the willed, sadistically avoidable end of things. If all time is eternally present / All time is unredeemable.) It flickers between scenes until the screen becomes its own double-exposure kinematoscope. Many of Jarman's movies are painterly; this one is staticky. It's like looking at a sparkler. And indeed, different characters carry these fizzing torches, white magnesium fire burning off the screen; they ward and threaten and signify, perhaps, at the last, hope. Of Jarman's work that I've seen, which at this point includes all the feature films except Sebastiane (1976), The Garden (1990), and Blue (1993), The Last of England reminds me most of the short The Art of Mirrors (1973) and the music videos he directed for the Smiths and for Marianne Faithfull, who appears via the soundtrack, singing the beginning of the "Skye Boat Song" over and over in her cracked bell of a voice as refugees or deportees huddle on the wharves of London, patrolled by balaclava'd soldiers with black boots and black guns and the confident stride of nationalists: there were white cliffs in Ford Madox Brown's painting, but here there's not even a boat. The other thing this film reminds me of is a nightmare. It contains the most frightening cauliflower I have ever seen. It contains a moon-crowned dancing androgyne, a wedding where the bridesmaids are pantomime dames and the baby is present in a pram full of tabloids, an execution in real time. A pair of soldiers waltz in a tire-littered alley, lit by a trash fire. The globe of the world spins as if out of control, between the hands of an actress who looks like (but I don't think is) Sycorax from The Tempest (1979). Its painted countries are probably out of date anyway. "Land of Hope and Glory" sails out over shots of the Albert Memorial and home footage of Empire-shadowed Pakistan from Jarman's childhood, but the violence of soldiers who are not on parade—the grandsons of Kipling's "sons o' the Widow," with all the latest overcompensating gear—stutters like bullet-flashes throughout. New York is a frenetic hallucination, a remembrance wreath the height of hypocrisy when exchanged for a submachine gun. Hitler's on the soundtrack, too.

I don't know why this movie isn't depressing. It should leave you feeling absolutely bludgeoned; I think it's so angry it's exhilarating. It mourns the loss of England that was or should have been, but it isn't conservative. In one of two scenes I had seen excerpted in photographs from the film—the other being Swinton between fire and water—a posh boy and a soldier fuck on top of a gigantic Union Jack, the former balls naked, the latter booted-gloved-masked to anonymity, in such a welter of cigarettes and empty wine bottles that you're amazed either of them is up for it, and maybe they aren't. It's vicious, but I also think it's funny. I'm not sure either the establishment or the jackboots got what they wanted out of that one. Elsewhere Jarman himself sits at his real desk, writing in his real journals, the nuclear power station at Dungeness overlooks Prospect Cottage to this day and the industrial desolation of London is a document as well as a vision. (Eyeless tower blocks, rag-and-bone quaysides, houses behind barbed wire. Nowhere is home here. Where are they setting out, that monkish, magician's boat at the end? All that's left is away.) The filmmaker's family appear as themselves thanks to at least two generations of home movies. The whole thing feels like something you could stumble across in the middle of the night but not discover in a museum. It feels more like the inside of another person's head than some self-portraits I've seen. Afterward, in the restroom, a total stranger with a German accent turned to me at the stall door and asked, "Did you just see the film? Did you like it?" Then she asked if I was German. I have to believe M. John Harrison saw this film.

You understand that this is not a review, but I hope you understand also why I had to say something. I love several films by Derek Jarman—Wittgenstein (1993) unreasonably—and when I walked out of the Brattle Theatre tonight I did not expect The Last of England to be one of them, but it may be that I do, not even because it's so beautiful, because often and pointedly it's not, but because it is so much itself. It's fragments against the ruins. It's on fire. (I could and would screen it to follow David Rudkin's Penda's Fen (1974): Jarman himself the ungovernable, dissonant flame.) This explosion brought to you by my visionary backers at Patreon.
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Courtesy of [personal profile] handful_ofdust: Zeal & Ardor, a Black metal band. That is, a black metal band whose major influence is Black American field hollers and spirituals. Writer-frontman Manuel Gagneux is biracial and started the band in response to racist abuse on 4chan, which may be the best outcome I have ever heard of people being racist on 4chan; the results are shredding and subversive, the perfect Kai Ashante Wilson soundtrack. That the nine songs on their debut album appear to have burst in from some fearful history where the forced Christianity of slavery engendered instead the defiant seeking out of Satan makes it all the sharper that Gagneux's vocals have been mistaken for the Alan Lomax field recordings they quite deliberately sound like. I heard "Blood in the River" first and it's hair-raising. Its author associates it with the Stono Rebellion. I could not help associating it with Orlando Jones' Mr. Nancy. "Devil Is Fine," the band's only official video so far, is a close second. The two projects are not otherwise sonically alike, but the time-rupturing, musically confrontational qualities of Devil Is Fine (2016/2017) reminded me powerfully of clipping.'s Splendor & Misery (2016), which I still wish had won the Hugo. [edit: I am not the only person who thinks so.] In short, they are well worth your listening, although not if you need to concentrate on anything else at all.

Past astro borders, Zeno lies waiting

Sep. 13th, 2017 04:03 pm
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Not only is the MBTA today made of pure butt, I don't like their new website, either. The user interface is less intuitive to interact with and the trip planner's ideas of directions are more confusing. I'm impressed, but maybe I'll just stick to paper schedules from now on.

1. I forgot to mention that the podcast in which I participated at NecronomiCon is now free to stream online: The Outer Dark 016: Live from NecronomiCon 2017. Other participants are the excellent Craig Laurance Gidney, Scott R. Jones, Stephen Graham Jones, and Peter Straub, with Scott Nicolay hosting and Anya Martin moderating. I seem to have overestimated how carefully I need to speak for radio, but it was a lot of fun.

2. Anthony Lane not liking The Limehouse Golem (2016) does not deter me from wanting to see it, since he consistently underestimates almost anything that counts as genre, but I am glad at least he appreciates Bill Nighy:

No film in which Bill Nighy appears can ever be discounted. Rakish, dapper, not quite ruined, quavering with half-concealed amusement, courteous toward a fallen world, and somehow both urbane and faintly spectral, he could have stepped straight out of a Sargent portrait. I can imagine him in spats. What a pleasure it is, then, to see him in a frock coat and a spotted necktie, stalking the London streets. In "The Limehouse Golem," set in 1880, he plays Inspector Kildare of Scotland Yard, whose career as a detective has been held back, it is whispered, because he is "not the marrying kind." The role was originally to have been played by Alan Rickman, who died last year—a passing as hard to accept as that of Severus Snape—and Nighy was cast instead. Rickman's Kildare would have been more insidious, perhaps, with a deeper drawl, and more likely to be suspected of the crimes that he was deputed to solve. Nighy, as sensitive as a seismograph, approaches them with a shudder.

3. Courtesy of [profile] strange_selkie: different kinds of manual labor being done really well, which means really beautifully because efficiency generally is. Some of it is performance flair, but some of it is just practical and also ridiculous.
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Today I had back-to-back doctor's appointments on an hour and a half of sleep, so [personal profile] spatch met me after the second and took me out for dinner at Loui Loui in Allston. It was a surprise until we got there. It was wonderful. The walk was slightly longer than expected—and the day much hotter—but we kept to the Esplanade and ducks and sailboats and sunbathers and the breeze off the water until we cut over into BU territory and were abruptly surrounded by students. The restaurant is plain but delicious. The special of the day was the fried catfish basket, which suited Rob, while I got the shrimp boil and did not expect that to mean a solid pound of spicy, garlicky peel-and-eat for which I was thoughtfully presented with gloves so that I did not scald my fingers off. There was coconut-milk ice cream from FōMū afterward, cold-brewed coffee for Rob and peach compote for me. And then the MBTA totally fell over on us and it took us something like two hours to get home, of which the bright spot was encountering a cheap but well-preserved reprint of Chester Himes' The Crazy Kill (1959) in the basement of the Harvard Book Store and the totally unnecessary part was having to walk up the hill from Union Square because the 88 decided it was really an 87 after all. The Mummy Returns (2001) has not yet come in to the library. The sky after sunset was the kind of soaking, luminous blue that looks rich enough to reach into. I really just want to pitch over sideways on the couch. I might just do that.
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Even for a pre-Code comedy, MGM's Speak Easily (1932) is an oddity. It's a talkie starring Buster Keaton and Jimmy Durante, for whose sake [personal profile] spatch and I would have watched it even if the cast list hadn't also included Thelma Todd. It has the kind of plot that can be most charitably described as lackadaisical, half fish out of water and half backstage musical and slapstick throughout, with little concern for narrative tension or payoff. Most of its music is stolen from other shows, which at least turns out to be one of the gags. It proves its pre-Code credentials the minute Durante refers to Todd as "big-time sex appeal," which she then confirms by enthusiastically stripping off in Keaton's office to demonstrate her suitability for the chorus line and Keaton falls off a chair as only he can, like a shockwave just hit; later in the plot she will slip into something sufficiently more comfortable that the only opaque parts are the big fur-trimmed sleeves, although the volume of booze knocked back in the same scene would almost certainly have put it beyond the pale in the Breen era anyway. I would not necessarily call Keaton's style of comedy a natural pairing with Durante's and I'm not sure the film managed to convince me that it was. I'm also not sure I cared.

I know the '30's were a bad decade for Keaton, personally, professionally; the studio system was a creative straitjacket, his marriage was breaking up and his drinking was out of control, and a lot of Speak Easily is funny at the level of affectionate smiling rather than open laughter, but the fact remains that as Timoleon Zanders Post, a mild-mannered and literal-minded professor of classics turned loose on an unsuspecting world by a well-meaning porter who just wanted him to live a little, Buster Keaton is adorable. Owlish, serious, and nerdily articulate, on discovering that he has apparently inherited $750,000 from an unknown beneficiary, "Timsy" throws all his worldly belongings into a steamer trunk—or tries to; some of his belongings are things like a coatrack and a chaise longue, which don't pack well—and heads out to experience Life, which he finds in the form of a fifth-rate troupe of vaudevillians who can't even get a hand in the culture-starved whistle-stop of Fish's Switch. Durante's Jimmy dashes back and forth between banging on the upright piano that passes for an orchestra pit and baggy-pantsing his way through jokes that even dad jokes would be embarrassed to know socially. The already thin audience is bailing as the curtain comes down. But Post is enraptured by the sweetly mediocre dancing of Ruth Selwyn's Pansy Peets and flattered by the support of the loudmouthed comic whom he addresses at all times as "James" and before anyone including Post quite knows what is happening, they're all headed to Broadway on the strength of a fictitious inheritance and the professor's very sincere appreciation of an art form which he keeps comparing to Aristophanes. (He is crestfallen to be told that not everything in Greek comedy is suitable for the Great White Way. "But, James, it was done so in Athens!"–"Yeah, they might get away with it in Athens, that's a college town!") He doesn't get mixed up with the gold-digging prima donna that is Todd's Eleanor Espere so much as he gets steamrolled, but the audience knows he'll come out of it eventually, even if he does stagger around initially with lipstick prints like rouge on those beautiful cheekbones of his. The finale in which the straight-faced professor finds himself accidentally salvaging the show with physical comedy isn't quite worthy of Sempitern Walker, but then Keaton's wearing too much clothing for that.

Even in a production that doesn't quite know what to do with him, it's a pleasure to watch Keaton do his thing. He's a silent comedian, a physical actor: he drops flat to the floor to read the inheritance letter, as if afraid it'll get away if he doesn't pin it in place; he has the stuffy, prissy posture of a man who can be identified a mile off by his pince-nez and his umbrella and his undertaker suits until he gets excited about something, at which point he bounces and flails and runs in and out of rooms like he's reenacting Marathon. He falls off trains, couches, catwalks, his own feet. When the calculating Eleanor tries to get the professor shikkered in order to compromise him (okay, I guess the PCA wouldn't have gone for that, either) and Post in the belief that a Tom Collins is a kind of lemonade mixes them both drinks stiff enough to cause spontaneous combustion, the results are one of the silliest drunk scenes I have ever encountered and gorgeously so, as a helium-voiced Todd loopily tries to put the moves on her oblivious prey and Keaton very seriously and very incompetently attempts to put his seductress to bed, at different points accidentally folding her in half and failing the fireman's carry and both of them slithering all over the furniture until Todd dressed in a negligée, a fox stole, and a very fancy hat takes a running faceplant onto one of the twin beds while Keaton who has managed to remove his shirt and his pants but forgotten about his sock garters carefully arranges himself on the other and passes out cold in a position that would give lesser mortals a crick in the ass. When he wakes up and comprehends where he is, he slips backward off the bed and blinks catlike over the rumpled bedclothes, a perfect silent short. If you're curious about Keaton's voice, by the way, it's not just fine, it's good. It's notably middle-American but not flat, with an edge that lends itself well to the meticulous diction and drypoint delivery of a character who absentmindedly hypercorrects "speakeasy" into "speak easily," but he can also sound shy, solicitous, flustered, and defiant, with the occasional Jimmy Stewart-like crack when events—or girls—really overtake him. I remain extremely annoyed that Mayer refused to take a chance on him for the serious, sympathetic role of Otto Kringelein in Grand Hotel (1932). He'd have been a revelation.

In the great reckoning of stories of nerds in show business, Stand-In (1937), Speak Easily is not. Probably the best way to consider the movie is as a series of extended sketches on a theme, of which the audience should enjoy whichever appeals to them and disregard the rest. Buster Keaton, even at a very rough patch in his life, remains both ridiculously beautiful and beautiful in motion, kinetic energy with umbrella in hand. I am aware that Jimmy Durante is something of a polarizing phenomenon, but I really enjoy him and his manic energy which never feels like it's gotten away from him. In the middle of the finale, he hauls a piano out in front of the curtain and does one of his nightclub routines and who cares if it makes sense in context, what we've seen of the show-within-a-show Speak Easily has been a sort of scantily clad revue mish-mosh anyway and Durante's sideways sequiturs are charming: "I know I'm not good-looking, but what's my opinion against thousands of others?" The problem with putting him and Keaton in the same routines is that neither of them is really a straight man—they're just different types of zany, Durante brash, Keaton mild—and I'm not sure the studio knew it. Too many of the jokes are set up as though one of them is supposed to hail from planet Earth and really they work best when the characters are operating at cross purposes (Post's inability to understand slang vs. Jimmy's inability to speak anything but) or unexpectedly on the same screwy wavelength. They were assigned two other films together, The Passionate Plumber (1932) and What! No Beer? (1933), and I am considering watching the latter only because it's in the TCM buffer and it's a Prohibition-era comedy about the repeal of Prohibition, which sounds historically intriguing if possibly not very well done. It does not, alas, appear to co-star Todd, who gets one of the best throwaway lines in the picture describing a costume she has in mind for her classically inspired dance: "There's not very much to it, you know, it's just right across here and a few beads—right, left." There's not very much to the film, either, but I regret nothing about giving it a try. The best of it is really funny; the worst of it won't hurt you. This variety brought to you by my Aristophanic backers at Patreon.
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By now [personal profile] rushthatspeaks and I have evolved a ritual for our anniversaries: we find a really good restaurant and then we look for the sea. To mark our seventh year together, we returned to SRV, Boston's only Venetian-style bacaro and one of the best restaurants we have ever eaten at together. We were pleased to see they had not only survived their first year, they were jam-packed and humming on a Sunday night and still play their music at a volume that does not impede ordinary conversation, which is like hen's teeth for restaurants around here. Tonight they had the interior doors closed, but the street side of the restaurant open. The painted lion of Saint Mark still looks over the maître d's shoulder, wings out of shot. We started with cocktails: a Bergamot Brass for Rush (like lighter brandied apricots), the Bicycle Thieves for me (I can take or leave neorealism, but I like mezcal). Their nine-course tasting menu, the Arsenale, had amazed us last year. It did not let us down this year, either.

Two of the appetizers made welcome repeat appearances, the world's best bar snacks—pork-and-beef polpette in a red sauce so savory we waited for the bread to arrive just so we could sponge out the last of it—and the baccalà served on crostini ocean-black with squid ink and lightened this year with a dusting of sweet herbs. The soft squares of white polenta topped with shrimp in orange olive oil were new to us, but a keeper, citrus-clean without being oversweet. So were the calzoncini, improbably light little deep-fried packets of sweet cheese glazed with honey and chili flakes. The salad was butterhead lettuce and radicchio with contrasting cubes of peach and ricotta salata. Neither of us especially prefers bluefish, but it was irresistible lightly crisped on one side and poached on the other in a tomato broth with sweet corn and musky chanterelles. We were equally impressed by the brined chicken dressed with figs, green olives, and cucumber, a combination which sounded like an unworkable stunt and resulted in me trying to clean a plate of hot balsamic dressing with a slice of raw cucumber. The pasta was knockout: the pillowy tortelli folded over robiola should have been dairy-heavy and instead played really sweetly with slices of eggplant and shiitake, while the strozzapreti with pork sausage and daubs of spicy pesto were a strong, savory finish that reminded me how much I like cauliflower when it isn't soggy. For dessert, they brought us the improbable-sounding but non-gritty polenta gelato with huckleberries (and decorative strands of corn silk, which Rush and I both accidentally ate before realizing they were not strictly speaking food) and an astonishing panna cotta topped with tiny quartered figs and verjus granita. Rush had one of SRV's after-dinner cocktails, the spice-and-orgeat Tocco di Pera, and I got a glass of the Zucca Rabarbaro, the smoky rhubarb liqueur they had introduced us to last year. They were very good about observing Rush's onion allergy and we left them appreciative notes when we paid our bill.

And then we drove out to the sea, which we found this year on Nahant after forgetting that Point of Pines is resident-permit only. Too much of Nahant also appears to eschew public parking, but as we came up over one tantalizing sea-cliff view we saw a huge copper-red half-moon laying down faint gold on the night-crimped water and exclaimed out loud. Eventually we parked by the causeway, walked out onto the wet sand that must have been the furthest ebb of the tide because it ran out far into Nahant Bay, cobbled with half-shells and tangled strands of seaweed and a living clam which I lifted from the surf to show Rush-That-Speaks, who had never held one before. It was cold and heavy, larger than my fist, the sea's wet, ruffled heart. There were two figures farther down the tide-line from us, mostly glimpsed as silhouettes against the moving water, but I lost track of them before we turned back; they went back to the sea, maybe, while we went back to the car. I love the sea-fog that gathers around the streetlights, the way night water glitters, but a flat strand shines. The moon reflected like a broken spill of gold in the wet agate bands of sand. Low tide never smells unpleasant to me.

And Rush drove me home, and I am listening now to the new music which they sent me, and Hestia tried to persuade me that my husband had never, ever fed her or her brother, not even an hour ago, definitely not, and Autolycus sniffed me solemnly and I said nothing about bluefish or gelato.

Happy anniversary, my night-driver. Many years more.
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It is my seventh anniversary with [personal profile] rushthatspeaks. After returning to Boston late last night, I have spent most of today doing nothing but curling up with cats and reading Mummy fic on AO3 and FFN. In half an hour Rush is picking me up and we are heading for a restaurant we love and the sea. Or at least that's the theory, if Autolycus ever decides to get off my lap again in his life.

My poems "Cosmopolitan Bias" and "Dis Genite et Geniture Deos" have been accepted by The Cascadia Subduction Zone. The first was provoked by Stephen Miller's remarks on the Statue of Liberty and kind of turned out a curse; the second is a Dido poem, taking its title from Aeneid 9.641–42. I am very glad that both of them will have homes. Unsurprisingly this year, they are both political.

[personal profile] lesser_celery has announced the table of contents for Not One of Us #58. It has two of my poems in it and I am looking forward to the rest.

Courtesy of [personal profile] choco_frosh: long-lost languages found in palimpsest.

Courtesy of [personal profile] ladymondegreen: byssus in modern times.

I am a terrible person. I must displace a cat.

Weekend todo

Sep. 9th, 2017 10:44 am
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Friday
7.15 CoDA meeting
Get gas
Fertilize and water garden

Saturday
Meditation
Remove failed caulk from Yellow Bathroom sink
Recaulk Yellow Bathroom sink
Take down Yellow Bathroom vent cover
Laundry
Dishes
Mulch and tidy garden
Prepare super bills for submission to insurance company

Sunday
Bunday
Meditation
Weekly prayer
Incoming snail mail
Fill medication organizers
Fill snack containers
Make tea bags
Pick up kitchen and living room
Paint garden stool, vent cover, license plate frame screws

Monday
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7.30 ACA meeting
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Today the rain looks like window bars. I hoped to get out to a film showing today on John Madin and the lost Central Library but tickets have sold out.

I got back last night from a few days spent with [personal profile] cybermule . We went up to an installation in Bath Wednesday called The Brutalist Playground, which was pretty bloody amazing: I texted John H to say It's like Ballard wrote a kids' book! All but one segment came from a real 60s playground in London: a tilted "flying saucer", a monolith of a slide, an angular tunnel you could crawl through... all built from the variegated foam they used to stuff seventies crash mat with. On the walls they were projecting photos and plans of brutalist estates: it was an eerie effect when the projections fell across peoples' faces, as if architects had designed what lay beneath the skin. I played too, half-hoping that when I came out of the tunnel I'd find myself in another decade. If I'd seen this a few months ago, The Concrete Child might have been a slightly different story. We got out into the car park and rooks were settling down to sleep in the tree above our heads; and a copper-pink full moon followed us home.

I'm juggling a few books right now. Helen Dunmore's The Greatcoat, found for fifty pence. Roy Vickery's Garlands, Conkers and Mother-Dies, on British plant-lore, found in the same charity shop. And Mark Valentine's wonderful collection of essays on landscape and literature, A Country Still All Mystery. This was an unexpected gift from the author and ranges over musings on lost fantasy novels, yew trees, the falling-place of the last English wolf, land left outside parish boundaries.. After all this I have Sarah Orne Jewitt's The Country of Pointed Firs to read. Do any of my New England friends know of this one - [personal profile] asakiyume ,[personal profile] sovay ?

And did I panic? I think not

Sep. 8th, 2017 12:46 am
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I did not see Stephen Sommers' The Mummy (1999) when it came out in the spring of my senior year of high school. At that point in my life I watched very few movies and when I did they were mostly social activities or taped off the television in black and white and this one looked big, loud, stupid, and above all not Boris Karloff. My then-boyfriend saw it without me; he reported a lot of computer-generated gore and scarabs. I didn't bother. Flash forward eighteen years and all of a sudden I'm seeing The Mummy and its first sequel namechecked everywhere as paramount examples of heroic female geekery and a het romance that actually works. Yesterday was characterized by exhaustion and eye-crossing headache and I needed a distraction, so I got a slightly scratched DVD out of the library and decided to see what I was missing.

The film is big, and it is loud, and the Orientalism goes up to eleven, but it knows it's not Boris Karloff and I don't think it's stupid. It's adventure pulp made by people who knew Spielberg was never going to come through with the further exploits of Indiana Jones—and must have felt smug when he finally did and they were The Kingdom of the Crystal Skull (2008)—and while the generation loss of making a homage to a homage could have left The Mummy insubstantial and ironic, instead it plays with the breezy fast pace and selectively sidestepped tropes of a blockbuster that looks like everyone who made it actually had fun. Rachel Weisz as Evie Carnahan is a one-woman screwball comedy, bespectacled as Cary Grant, chaos-making as Katharine Hepburn; still so young that she's curly-haired and kitten-faced, she's also the most accomplished Egyptologist in the story ("Take that, Bembridge scholars!") and I couldn't help noticing that while the climax does find her in need of rescue from your traditional lost-love resurrection ritual, the bulk of the plot on either side turns directly on her actions, from pursuing a childhood dream of the lost city of Hamunaptra to identifying a crucial hieroglyph by rather shaky description alone while dodging a priesthood's worth of murderous mummies. Opposite her, Brendan Fraser as soldier of fortune Rick O'Connell has to be good in order not to get wiped out of his own top billing and he is—he can do casual rugged heroism with tongue discreetly in cheek, he looks splendid in the Army-cut fashions of the '20's, and it gets funnier every time he reacts to the intimidating roar of something evil by screaming his face off right back at it. They fall in love like all the best adventurers, doing absurdly competent and foolhardy things while looking as though they can't believe their luck that the other person is right there alongside them. Kevin O'Connor is such an unapologetic weasel as Beni, ex-Legionnaire turned mummy's Renfield, that despite the script's explicit warning that "nasty little fellows such as yourself always get their comeuppance," I was still sorry to see him get his, and John Hannah's Jonathan Carnahan proves that I am incapable of not overthinking even summer blockbuster pulp, because when I see, in 1926, a young-ish Englishman that drunk, that flippant, and that good with firearms, I can't help wondering if his war was the Western Front or the Mesopotamian campaign. I am pretty sure that Odad Fehr's Ardeth Bay survives his heroic self-sacrifice by sheer force of beauty, but with that profile and those tattoos I'll buy it. And Arnold Vosloo makes a surprisingly effective Imhotep who resembles his 1932 incarnation only in his love for a woman three thousand years gone; he spends most of the movie in a partial state of motion capture, but whenever he's more or less human, he is as intense and solemn as if he's starring in a romantic tragedy, not a monster movie, which from his perspective is true enough.

From everyone else's, of course, it is a monster movie, with faces emerging hollow-mouthed from sandstorms and gem-like scarabs slithering under people's skin and skeletal mummies clashing swords like the return of Ray Harryhausen. The plot is the sort of thing you expect when no one in an ancient Egyptian royal court sees the potential blowback of deploying a curse whose object can, if exposed to the right incantations, come back as an immortal sand demon with the power to summon plagues from a different mythology entirely, and no one in the present day believes in the existence of such curses except for the hereditary caste of warriors who have become as mythical as the sand-drowned city they guard. There are seekers of knowledge versus hunters of treasure, the return of the repressed in sun-snuffing style. Everybody gets at least one moment of pure heroism and one moment of pure comedy and sometimes they're the same thing. Refreshingly, for all the prevailing goofiness, the script has few true moments of idiot plot and they are at least doozies when they arrive. (It's a nice gruesome touch when Imhotep begins to supplement his eviscerated body with living organs harvested from the disturbers of his tomb, but then he should spend the rest of the movie bumping into furniture, since those shiny new eyeballs of his came from a man who canonically had trouble finding his way down a hallway after his glasses were knocked off.) The CGI does not hold up, exactly, but for the most part it's not objectionable and even pulls off some nice effects that don't need to look naturalistic, like the spirit of Patricia Velásquez's Anck-su-namun boiling thickly out of a sacred pool with the weird purplish sheen of corona discharge, eddying over her vacant body without ever quite settling into recognizable human shape.

What really does not hold up, and honestly should not have even in 1999, is the racism. There is a redshirt in the form of a corrupt prison warden who accompanies our heroes to Hamunaptra; he is played by Omid Djalili and his purpose is to demonstrate how dangerous it is to go wandering off alone in a city haunted by an undead high priest and his cursed followers, but I feel this could have been accomplished without jokes that would not have been out of place in Girl of the Port (1930). I mean, I appreciate that the script tries to be even-handed with its stereotypes by making the rival team of treasure-hunting Americans a bunch of gung-ho literal cowboys, but the fact remains that trigger-happy Yankees are less flatly offensive than an Arab character hawking and spitting on cue of a British character's disgusted remark about the expectoratory habits of camels. I have less trouble with Beni because he is so generically Eurotrash, like a turbo-charged Peter Lorre caricature; after Erick Avari's indignant introduction, it's nice to discover that his obstructive curator of the Cairo Museum of Antiquities is more than he seemed when he was chewing Evie out for trashing his library before half-destroying Jonathan's tattered, ancient find of a map. I almost wish more had been made of the casual reveal that the Carnahan siblings are, despite their all-British names and received pronunciation, half-Egyptian—"You see, my father was a very, very famous explorer and he loved Egypt so much, he married my mother, who was an Egyptian and quite an adventurer herself"—although that would have raised even more strongly the question of appropriate casting. (Send help, I just pictured Siddig El Fadil as Jonathan and now I am wistful.) There are conventions of adventure pulp that simply no longer need to be observed and I am sorry The Mummy thought its period setting would gloss them. I prefer when it remembers to subvert all of its tropes, as with the fact that Ardeth Bay's Medjai know damn well where the lost city is, they just don't want anybody visiting.

I have been awake since seven o'clock this morning and spent the day traveling and write this review from a motel in Pennsylvania while [personal profile] spatch catches up on the news on the bed behind me; I don't know what else I can say about this movie except that it is on the whole a really adorable adventure with a couple of sour notes I wish it hadn't struck and the people who recommend it for its heroine were right. I don't know if I would have enjoyed it in high school. I had much less experience of pulp in any form and might have bounced off the three-way mash-up of horror, humor, and action, especially since I thought I disliked two of those genres for years. (I thought I disliked alcohol for years. It turned out what I disliked was the kinds of alcohol college students think is a good idea. So too with horror film and action movies.) I suspect I would have enjoyed Evie; nerd heroes are rare and female nerd heroes practically unicorns. I would have been very impressed by Anck-su-namun's costume, which I did not realize was primarily body paint until it smudged under Imhotep's hands. I would have liked Jonathan, but that is predictable: he is light-fingered and almost resolutely irresponsible, but not actually stupid; bashes his way through hieroglyphs decently enough for magic and picks a plot-relevant pocket not once but three times in the film, each time with aplomb. I remember picking up the novelization in the Waldenbooks where I worked in the late '90's and early 2000's, but I don't remember anything about it except one stray line that evidently changed between shooting script and final cut. I haven't been able to get hold of Michael Almereyda's Trance/The Eternal (1998) and I wanted something with mummies even if they didn't come out of a bog. This excavation brought to you by my library-loving backers at Patreon.

Some thoughts about work

Sep. 7th, 2017 04:10 pm
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Hackathon
Last week I participated in my employer's semi-annual hackathon. In the past I've hated those events. From the UX side we were encouraged to participate, but the developers didn't want designers in their teams. They weren't sure how to collaborate with us as part of their normal work, and they sure as hell didn't want us designing their output. Nobody from UX was involved in planning or execution of the hackathons. Dev leadership would pay lip service to participation from non-technical staff but didn't try to support it in any way. This is like a perfect storm of everything I hate. 

What made this year different was that I had a really good idea. The raison d'être of the company I work for is to help ordinary Americans save for retirement. But for some unfathomable reason, we don't offer our customers any help once they actually retire. Instead we push their retirement start age a year into the future every year. It's a mystery how the company has survived for nearly 2 decades with that strategy. Of course we don't even know how many customers leave because we're so unhelpful in that phase of their financial lives. My idea was to create a customer experience for a person who has been retired for a few years. 

I recruited a product manager, a financial researcher and a writer to my team, Team Already Retired. Each team could only have up to five members. I was going to go for a marketer to fill the last slot. But then by mistake I recruited a development manager. He in turn recruited another developer, so we had to unload the product manager. But that meant that we could attack the problem from two sides: the customer side and the numbers side.

The writer and me created an email, a landing page and an overview page. The email was meant for people who were over 50 and who had recently stopped working. It invited them to tell us if they had retired. The landing page gave them three options: 
  • Yes, I'm retired and this is the date I stopped working.
  • No, and this is my new employer. 
  • It's complicated, so please call me. 
From there people who said that they had retired would go to an overview page that would give them key information about their finances in retirement, including Social Security and healthcare costs. 

The developers managed to squeeze the relevant numbers from an algorithm that was developed many years ago. So we used those numbers in the prototype that I created. 

There was a lot of buzz around our idea and we did a great demo. We had been told that presentations were going to happen in random order, but instead they went alphabetically. So we were the first team to demo.

I started the demo off with saying that my team was proposing to extend the vision of our founders from helping people prepare for retirement to also help them live well through retirement. I also said that of all the hacks presented, ours had the greatest chance of growing and transforming the company. Bold words, but having seen all the other demos, I still think they're true. Apparently others did too, because we won! 

That felt really good! I feel more accepted by my coworkers than before. Lots of people have come up and congratulated me since the event. There is talk about productizing my idea, too. We'll see where it leads. For now I'm happy that we won. I'm not sure that I'll volunteer to lead another team next time. It's hard to top that experience of winning the first time I did it. 

Fancy Ass Designer
Of course there's backlash too. The Fancy Ass Designer didn't participate in the Hackathon. Apparently he got bored while I and most of the engineers were doing that, so he put in some work on the area of the project that he had delegated to me. *head desk* As I told somebody else, when you've delegated something, it stays delegated. Partly taking it back and sketching some random ideas that you don't even know if they're viable, is just poor management.

The product manager who was associated with my team, is also the PM who is leading the project the FAD and me are working on. I think that working on my part of the project was a way for him to "win back" the PM from me. It seems childish but that's par for the course for this guy. 

Another UX person was walking around making sure everybody on the UX team signed a baby shower card earlier this week. She had a list, but the Fancy Ass Designer's name wasn't on it. It's just one more thing that makes me think that he isn't going to be around for much longer. I'd be surprised if he's still here when it's time to sign my birthday card in January. 

Accessibility
The again, I'm not sure I'll be around for that either. Accessibility has reared its ugly head again. I last wrote about the topic and how it's been mismanaged back in June. I'm still their fallback plan and the brass still don't get it. A lot has happened since June. I was able to get my manager to understand the topic a bit more. We did some preliminary work on selecting an accessibility company that would help us make our customer-facing sites accessible.

Auf Nimmerwiedersehen, Boss!
Since then my manager has left. I've know since January that he was on his way out. He'd been to an off-site with the other managers first thing in the new year. When he came back from the off site, he told me that he had been severely criticized by his new manager and his peers for being too wishy-washy. They wanted him to step up and lead to help make the company more UX and design centric. He also said that he knew that he wasn't capable of that. So the writing was on the wall.

I'm happy that he's gone because that gives us a chance to get a UX leader who will actually lead. My manager only blamed his own team for any conflict that came up. He really wasn't a good manager. If it's one thing I expect from a manager, it's that he'll have my back. With this guy you could depend on him blaming you instead.  

New UX broom
One of the last things my manager did, was to hire a very senior designer who I know from my time in a previous company. We worked together on defining interaction patterns. She hasn't been formally tapped to be the new UX leader, but I'm hoping that she will be. She's already shown her leadership skills and others in and outside the team are enthusiastic as a result. We've been waiting for a proper leader for so long! I've been giving her hints and tips along the way and that's worked out very well. 

The New UX Broom has some competition. The Fancy Ass Designer, for instance, seems to think that it's his turn to run the team. If he wins, I'm probably leaving. He's not a great UX project lead and I doubt that promoting him above his incompetence will help matters. There's also the senior visual designer. Back when we had a visual design team, he managed it. Although, given his almost allergic reaction to conflict, he's probably happy to let somebody else lead. Preferably not somebody who will blame him for every conflict that crops up! 

More accessibility
Anyway, returning to the subject of accessibility, the heads of Consumer Products and Development are now tasked to deal with accessibility. I had a meeting with them yesterday. They are at sea and they know it. Unfortunately they'd much rather use me as a life raft, rather than learn even a little doggie paddle. I've just written an email to them, further emphasizing that training the developers is not optional if they want to become compliant.

Earlier today I googled the difference in pay between a designer and a product manager. The national median difference is $25,000/year. So if the opportunity presents itself again, I will bring up my idea of moving into product management. Right now I'm thinking that if they want me to work on accessibility full time, they either pay or I hand in my notice. It is way too frustrating to be caught up in their crisis management without a hefty pay rise. It's not like it would be hard for me to find another job if I quit. 

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