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[cybermule]

Steph is muttering direly about the use of frames in websites, but I've finally laid down the outline for the site I promised somebody about 3 months ago. I guess he doesn't understand that sometimes I have to teach myself to accept less than perfect, and it's the job that never gets started as takes longest to finish :)

The past few days have not been good. A smothering cloak of depression is draped across my shoulders, and it needs a good dry-clean. Can't think, can't create, can't plan, can't see any point. I feel like I'm wading through tar. Ultimately, I know that the possibility exists that I could drink my way to death at 50 and the possibility of that being allowed to happen in this world makes life seem so bleak :(

Blech - this is something that I should address tomorrow, rather than dwelling on today. And address it I shall. Probably ;) Problem is knowing where to start...

OK - self-indulgent ramblings at an end. Happy thoughts: I can smell the rose bush under my window + I'm off to watch South Park before bed.

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[apel.livejournal.com]

Sorry that you're not feeling good.

Did you see the documentary about Adam Ant tonight? It was on channel 4. Apparently his father was an alcoholic. The whole programme was about him being bipolar. I thought it was quite interesting.

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Thanks for the good wishes - feeling better :) I wish I hadn't missed that programme - I used to like Adam Ant, so I would probably have listened better :P

One of my mini-resolutions for today is to get a few books on ACOAs/depression etc.