Two occurences

[cybermule]

This morning, I had an interview for a better paid techy job. Could take it or leave it really, in the sense that pros and cons are balanced, rather than in the sense of apathy.

Lately I've noticed that I really couldn't care less what people think of me. I used to worry when people picked holes in things I said, or were sarcastic. I'd worry that they'd think I was stupid, and I'd vigorously defend my corner.

Now I just think, fuck 'em. I'm not sure whether this is because I'm becoming more secure and confident in myself, or whether I'm just turning into an arrogant bitch.

Either way, I just can't be bothered to engage in it at all. Life seems too short.

Comments

[bluwhisper.livejournal.com]

I've been wondering if the same sort of change is needed for me. Not in the personal arena as much as in the professional one. No one finds me threatening. While I don't want to make people defensive, I've found that people are always underestimating me. They aren't threatened by my talents because I keep them carefully guarded. I think maybe I should be stepping up and standing up more. I'm not one to go around quoting Godspell, but I'm starting to think the following might apply to me: "if that light's under a bushel / It's lost something kind of crucial"....

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Yeah - you do need to promote yourself in life, otherwise, compared to everyone else's bragging, you end up looking really grey. I know I always end up losing out in interviews and things because I expect people to see my qualities and value them, rather than having to point them out. And I think, like you said, there's a difference between fear and respect ;)

You should go for it, babe - it's easier said than done, I know, but you've nothing to lose!