Dreams and friends

[cybermule]

Well, I'm starting to remember more dreams with more effort put into writing them down. But I should make a note of them right away, otherwise I forget.


Last night's dream was cool - I had this great friend staying with me. I knew them already (although IRL I don't recognise who it is), but it was the first time I actually met them, and they were staying at my house. We had to battle an evil witch (she looked like the one from "Big Fish"). The great thing about it was that this friend just accepted that that's what we had to do, and we were of one mind - really similar ways of thinking and planning and dealing with the crisis.

I occasionally get this dream about a "super friend", and I guess it bothers me as I've never really known that sort of friendship, and I'm wondering whether it's unrealistic. Don't get me wrong - I have friendly/romantic/familial relationships with various people, and I love them all dearly, but I never have that feeling that this is "the one", any sort of romantic or platonic soul-mate. I'm not sure if there's something wrong with me (it often makes me feel like a bit of a bitch, despite my deep love for those I care about), or whether it's just a ridiculously idealistic notion. Other people seem to get that feeling of extreme emotional/intellectual closeness, just not me. Hmm. This isn't morose or self-pitying, just observational. I might just return to it later :)

Anyway, the rest of the dream (or maybe the second part - I'm in the habit of waking up early at the moment, then drifting off for another hour later) involved fighting with an infected vampire gerbil :D The only notable point (about from the silliness of that) is that it was in the same kind of stately-home place that I keep having as a dream-setting recently.

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[aras-55555.livejournal.com]

I'm not sure if there's something wrong with me (it often makes me feel like a bit of a bitch, despite my deep love for those I care about), or whether it's just a ridiculously idealistic notion.

Can I pick 'none of the above'? ;)

I occasionally get this dream about a "super friend", and I guess it bothers me as I've never really known that sort of friendship, and I'm wondering whether it's unrealistic.

When I was young, I had this friend I was really close with, and we'd do so many things together, and whenever we encountered each other anywhere it was just automatic that we paired up for whatever. He was in the same grade with me at school, and I'd go to his house after school when my mom wasn't home (like 3 or 4 out of 5 days a week) because either his mom or someone else older was always at his house.

After I moved out of the neighbourhood (after grade 3) we stull hung out a lot because we were both lithuanian so we'd meet at all sorts of extra-cirricular activities. We'd always sit beside each other when we could, at summer camp it was automatic I'd share my tent with him, I'd always get involved in his kooky ideas and schemes...and then of course there's that guy-stuff of punching each other a lot and stuff ;)

In our late teens we kind of drifted apart. He got into getting high pretty much whenever he could, and I wasn't into that at that time in my life. Looking back on it, it was probably also that with all the anxiety and stress of being a teen, we both kind of retreated into our own little worlds :/

So, I guess I'm saying it's at least possible at some point in life...though getting something like that in a relationship when you're an adult isn't something I've achieved yet. It's definately a hope, but imho you can't be desperate about it, because if you're desperate to be around this or that person, it'll just be constantly uncomfortable.


Anyway, there I go again, putting a personal reminscince of mine in *your* journal, but I thought it was kinda relevant :)

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[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Can I pick 'none of the above'? ;)

Hmmm. I guess. But only if you explain your own alternative - are you saying that it is possible, just not all the time. Or something else? Or are you not really saying anything particular in particular at all? ;)

And don't worry about the reminiscences - my journal is here primarily for me, but a big secondary point is for it to be there for my friends. So thanks for sharing :) I'm starting to think that I need networks of people to satisfy my quest for objectivity - even the tiniest bit of kinship with a random person will often in some way give me an objective reflection of myself.

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[aras-55555.livejournal.com]

Or are you not really saying anything particular in particular at all? ;)

LOL! Why do I suddenly hear quiz-show bells going 'ding-ding-ding'? ;)

What I meant is that neither is something wrong with you, nor is it *ridiculously* idealistic. I mean, just the craving must indicate the possibilitiy of its existence in some form, n'est pas?

So, I guess I'm saying that I do think it's possible :)

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[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Or are you not really saying anything particular in particular at all? ;)

Ah - I reread that and saw that it might be interpreted as negative. You probably didn't take it that way, knowing that I was likely to just have been entranced by two "particular"s in one sentence, but I thought I'd just be certain :)

What I really meant to say was pretty much as you said yourself - that it was a more grey area than I'd originally suspected.