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May. 18th, 2004 04:00 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
cybermuleI finally managed to super-cool my hotel room to a temperature where beads of nitrogen are forming on the window frame.
I've now reached the stage of the long dark business trip of the soul where even a peck on the cheek from a new acquaintance is pathetically touching. And so i notice that i can only say anything remotely meaningful to those i don't really know.
Why can't you tell the people you care about how much they mean? Because that will shatter the neat facade of friendly, yet cool, flippancy that buffers you from risk? because it's a fucking stupid thing to do, that brings the just reward of being deservedly and roundly laughed at? Because it is so deeply uncool to actually care about anything or anybody these days?
and what do you have to lose? dignity, a friend that never was, a few cool points. but still nobody ever quite gets around to it.
and if i wasn't stuck in a hotel room, this may have been a useful impulse. as it is, i'll just file under "pointless".
mood-cheerful, music-portishead
I've now reached the stage of the long dark business trip of the soul where even a peck on the cheek from a new acquaintance is pathetically touching. And so i notice that i can only say anything remotely meaningful to those i don't really know.
Why can't you tell the people you care about how much they mean? Because that will shatter the neat facade of friendly, yet cool, flippancy that buffers you from risk? because it's a fucking stupid thing to do, that brings the just reward of being deservedly and roundly laughed at? Because it is so deeply uncool to actually care about anything or anybody these days?
and what do you have to lose? dignity, a friend that never was, a few cool points. but still nobody ever quite gets around to it.
and if i wasn't stuck in a hotel room, this may have been a useful impulse. as it is, i'll just file under "pointless".
mood-cheerful, music-portishead
