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[cybermule]

Well well well.

So I'm back from Cambridge and it didn't all go so badly. The colleague I went with was lovely, and we got on well and are going out for a drink some time. Which was part of what prompted the last post - I always end up feeling bad that I can get on OK with new people, and I get to this certain level of friendship and just clam up.

I guess when I start to care about someone, I start to admire them *too* much and get shy. But then if I didn't care, then I wouldn't care. I could tie myself up in logical knots for that one, so I'm just going to resolve to make the effort to be a bit more open.

I also ate some grass jelly, which was distinctly weird. And bought a bunch of cheap CDs. I spent an evening at the pub with some people I didn't really know and was quite sociable. It always surprises me when I manage not to act like a total f*ckwit :)

Someone wrote me some really nice feedback for my performance review at work :D It was so sweet - they seemed to really like me, and used loads of flattering adjectives to describe things that I actually do like about myself. Which is another thing that always surprises me - people seeming to actually like me as a person.

That'll make up for the total insult I got this morning.

Relationships piss me off >:(

This entry is actually less disjointed than my brain :P

Comments

[ninneviane.livejournal.com]

I guess when I start to care about someone, I start to admire them *too* much and get shy. But then if I didn't care, then I wouldn't care. I could tie myself up in logical knots for that one, so I'm just going to resolve to make the effort to be a bit more open.
Ditto!
Only I couldn't find the words to describe the feeling :)
**hugs**
I think you're great hun, and I'm looking forward to meeting you next week!
**cringes**
Have I responded to your mail yet?
Don't think I have, sorry hun. Will get on the case tomorrow! :)

MEETING UP (YAY!)

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

As suspected, I'm in Brum (well, near the airport) overnight on Tuesday. I want to try out their spiffy swimming pool in the morning, but other than that I'm pretty much free *and* pretty much there already :)

I'm glad you liked the description - *hugs* you back. Very different lives, very like minds :)

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Sudden correction - I have to hang arounduntil mid-morning, maybe and point stuff out to people. *yawn*

When you mail me, do you want to send me your mobile number?

[zleetle.livejournal.com]

1 - New people are hard. I feel like I have several levels of openness, and going from one to the other is a painful process for both of us. If they can make the journey, though, they are usually worth it :)

2 - What is grass jelly? It sounds like something I want to know about ;P

[unsane1.livejournal.com]

It's a typo, she meant grass jello. You know, green grass, in jello. Yum.

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

It's not a typo - jello=jelly in Britland. And it wasn't very green - it was black and faintly medicinal, but well worth trying :)

[unsane1.livejournal.com]

LOL. I guess that was a dumb joke then, since it really was grass jello heh.

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Mmm. I'm starting to really appreciate the people that stick with me through my crappy phases. And the more I am just open and honest about who I really am, the more I feel truly accepted. It's just getting over that massive hurdle. I'm definitely going to work on it though - there are people in my life now that really mean something to me, so I want them to know it.

And, as unsane1 pointed out, it's just jelly made of grass. Except I think that what we call jelly, you call jello. And what you call jelly, we call jam :)

[unsane1.livejournal.com]

Which is another thing that always surprises me - people seeming to actually like me as a person.


LOL. You make me laugh. :) What do we need to do to convince you that you rock?

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Heheh - now I feel bad for fishing for compliments :P Seriously, though - thanks. Really and truly, that meant a lot to me. It's just a long slow process to rescue and revive my self-esteem, but I am slowly getting there.

And you too rock most highly :)

[unsane1.livejournal.com]

It's just a long slow process to rescue and revive my self-esteem, but I am slowly getting there.


*nods*


And you too rock most highly :)


Lies! ;)