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cybermuleWell well well.
So I'm back from Cambridge and it didn't all go so badly. The colleague I went with was lovely, and we got on well and are going out for a drink some time. Which was part of what prompted the last post - I always end up feeling bad that I can get on OK with new people, and I get to this certain level of friendship and just clam up.
I guess when I start to care about someone, I start to admire them *too* much and get shy. But then if I didn't care, then I wouldn't care. I could tie myself up in logical knots for that one, so I'm just going to resolve to make the effort to be a bit more open.
I also ate some grass jelly, which was distinctly weird. And bought a bunch of cheap CDs. I spent an evening at the pub with some people I didn't really know and was quite sociable. It always surprises me when I manage not to act like a total f*ckwit :)
Someone wrote me some really nice feedback for my performance review at work :D It was so sweet - they seemed to really like me, and used loads of flattering adjectives to describe things that I actually do like about myself. Which is another thing that always surprises me - people seeming to actually like me as a person.
That'll make up for the total insult I got this morning.
Relationships piss me off >:(
This entry is actually less disjointed than my brain :P
So I'm back from Cambridge and it didn't all go so badly. The colleague I went with was lovely, and we got on well and are going out for a drink some time. Which was part of what prompted the last post - I always end up feeling bad that I can get on OK with new people, and I get to this certain level of friendship and just clam up.
I guess when I start to care about someone, I start to admire them *too* much and get shy. But then if I didn't care, then I wouldn't care. I could tie myself up in logical knots for that one, so I'm just going to resolve to make the effort to be a bit more open.
I also ate some grass jelly, which was distinctly weird. And bought a bunch of cheap CDs. I spent an evening at the pub with some people I didn't really know and was quite sociable. It always surprises me when I manage not to act like a total f*ckwit :)
Someone wrote me some really nice feedback for my performance review at work :D It was so sweet - they seemed to really like me, and used loads of flattering adjectives to describe things that I actually do like about myself. Which is another thing that always surprises me - people seeming to actually like me as a person.
That'll make up for the total insult I got this morning.
Relationships piss me off >:(
This entry is actually less disjointed than my brain :P
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Date: 2004-05-20 02:05 pm (UTC)Ditto!
Only I couldn't find the words to describe the feeling :)
**hugs**
I think you're great hun, and I'm looking forward to meeting you next week!
**cringes**
Have I responded to your mail yet?
Don't think I have, sorry hun. Will get on the case tomorrow! :)
MEETING UP (YAY!)
Date: 2004-05-21 05:25 am (UTC)I'm glad you liked the description - *hugs* you back. Very different lives, very like minds :)
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Date: 2004-05-21 10:17 am (UTC)When you mail me, do you want to send me your mobile number?