looking forward...

[cybermule]

It was Dad's funeral yesterday :( I haven't talked about this yet, but this journal was supposed to be a record of my thoughts from 30 onwards, and this will be a big part of this part of my life.

Anyway, the past week since I found out has just been unspeakably crap - just lying on the sofa pretty much 24 hours a day feeling completely shattered. The few other things I've done have seemed surreal and trippy, so there really hasn't been much to write about. On Thursday I went to say goodbye to him, which I never thought I would have been brave enough to cope with. My Dad had had a troubled life in the past few years, and we hadn't always been easy with each other, so I wrote him a loving letter and took some of the roses from my garden.

Then yesterday was the funeral, and dealing with a whole bunch of family that I hadn't seen in anywhere between 1-20 years! The service was good though - Jake spoke about my dad's happier days and I read a Tolkien poem, then we all sobbed our heart out to "My Sweet Lord" :/

Feel a bit better now - time to start getting back to my life I guess...

Comments

[goffstar.livejournal.com]

I'm so sorry but it seems like you dealt with it admirably

I hope things get a little easier for you

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Thanks :) I didn't use to think that saying sorry was helpful, but now I know that it really does mean something, so thanks again. I'm sure tings will get better, and I'm glad you think I'm coping 'cos sometimes it really doesn't feel like that!