Happy Hallowe'en :)

[cybermule]

Bloink. Ate a piece of rather sugary hallowe'en cake. Now I feel queasy.

Managed to avoid the trick-or-treaters by going for a curry with some friends. They came back to my place after for coffee, and for some reason I feel a bit weird about this. I guess it's just that I'm very private about my house. Just my brother, my mom and my friend Mark and his GF have visited, and I like it that way. I don't know why. Partly that my house is a very individual statement of me and my tastes I guess, and I get paranoid about people getting that insight into my character. Also because I'm not particularly tidy, I don't dust, I decorate in strong colours, and I have a right mishmash of bits and pieces.

OK - I'm tired. This isn't making any particular sense. I'm slowly getting used to just being me and letting people like me (or not) for being myself. But I emphasise the "slowly" part of that.

Oh well - they liked my cat :)

Comments

[unsane1.livejournal.com]

If I had to guess from the above, I'd say it was because these aren't the "best friend" type of friends? Of course if you dont bring best friend types in either this theory goes out the window. :)

I was thinking about this for a while:

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Yeah - I think that's it. I hang out with them, but I'm not exactly comfy with them, and I cleaned up because I felt I _had_ to, rather than actually wanting to. They're all nice, but I guess I feel they're just fundamentally different from me in some way.

Thx.