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cybermuleMy finances are pretty fucked. Partly food and utility inflation, partly circumstances, partly my own freaking stupidity.
Getting more income would be a good thing. But I can also start trimming away at purchases. Even on my own piffling scale, I buy too much stuff.
I was thinking about it earlier, during a moment of rare and lovely peace. Even though I was perfectly happy, my brain started nagging at me to scope out a wool purchase. I don't need the wool yet, but it looks like I may run out before I've completed my project. So my brain keeps hammering away at it. The sensible thing is to wait and see it I run out, then take the shawl to a shop of woolly goodness to find the right shade and thickness to finish off the shawl without it being too jarring.
So literally no point right now. But my brain is very keen on making purchases just in case. And I was thinking that maybe this is because I have no trust in getting my needs met, so I try and do it a bit obsessively. Maybe somewhere in the back of my head, nobody will notice me running out of wool. Nobody will notice that I have a need and help me fulfil it.
Again I return to the obvious pop psychology that I can ask to have my needs met. But if it were that obvious and easy, the world would run like clockwork, wouldn't it?
So when it comes to wool, I'm happy to train myself to keep sitting on my hands.
Getting more income would be a good thing. But I can also start trimming away at purchases. Even on my own piffling scale, I buy too much stuff.
I was thinking about it earlier, during a moment of rare and lovely peace. Even though I was perfectly happy, my brain started nagging at me to scope out a wool purchase. I don't need the wool yet, but it looks like I may run out before I've completed my project. So my brain keeps hammering away at it. The sensible thing is to wait and see it I run out, then take the shawl to a shop of woolly goodness to find the right shade and thickness to finish off the shawl without it being too jarring.
So literally no point right now. But my brain is very keen on making purchases just in case. And I was thinking that maybe this is because I have no trust in getting my needs met, so I try and do it a bit obsessively. Maybe somewhere in the back of my head, nobody will notice me running out of wool. Nobody will notice that I have a need and help me fulfil it.
Again I return to the obvious pop psychology that I can ask to have my needs met. But if it were that obvious and easy, the world would run like clockwork, wouldn't it?
So when it comes to wool, I'm happy to train myself to keep sitting on my hands.
