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cybermuleSpent all last night dreaming that I had to clear out my parents old place. Horrible on a number of levels.
Firstly, their moving just unsettled me cos I'd always lived in the same place as a kid. Secondly, my dad was having some kind of nervous breakdown when they moved and basically just threw pretty much everything away. Thirdly, this would have been the first time they threw anything away, so my dream consisted of having to box up about 25 years of total junk :p
I actually had some control in my dream - I was walking around from room to room deciding what to pick up and pack. But I had to work really fast. I guess this just comes from mild "mum moving stress". Bleh. The whole thing kind of made me depressed to be honest. I was talking to my brother about it the other day, as he'd recently dreamt about my dad and got depressed because he woke up and none of it was real. It's the worst feeling I've ever had I think - like a kind of sickness to the stomach, and every time I have one of these dreams I can't eat the next day :(
I used to get the same feeling when I was a kid, but the dreams were the other way around - people had died, and I felt crap when I woke up because I thought it was real. Now I feel crap when I wake up after thinking they hadn't died. I guess I used to worry about losing people excessively when I was a kid... still do. It's tied up with material stuff as well - I get intense sentimental attachment to things. Although when it comes to the crunch, things don't mean anything at all.
Weird... I'd love to know more about how my brain works.
Firstly, their moving just unsettled me cos I'd always lived in the same place as a kid. Secondly, my dad was having some kind of nervous breakdown when they moved and basically just threw pretty much everything away. Thirdly, this would have been the first time they threw anything away, so my dream consisted of having to box up about 25 years of total junk :p
I actually had some control in my dream - I was walking around from room to room deciding what to pick up and pack. But I had to work really fast. I guess this just comes from mild "mum moving stress". Bleh. The whole thing kind of made me depressed to be honest. I was talking to my brother about it the other day, as he'd recently dreamt about my dad and got depressed because he woke up and none of it was real. It's the worst feeling I've ever had I think - like a kind of sickness to the stomach, and every time I have one of these dreams I can't eat the next day :(
I used to get the same feeling when I was a kid, but the dreams were the other way around - people had died, and I felt crap when I woke up because I thought it was real. Now I feel crap when I wake up after thinking they hadn't died. I guess I used to worry about losing people excessively when I was a kid... still do. It's tied up with material stuff as well - I get intense sentimental attachment to things. Although when it comes to the crunch, things don't mean anything at all.
Weird... I'd love to know more about how my brain works.
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Date: 2004-01-12 08:09 pm (UTC)Hmm second time you have that playing, with no other Biosphere songs ever mentioned... You're missing out on so many good songs. :)
Although, in the interest of recommending only the absolutely stellar releases, his Substrata album is magnitudes better than anything else he's done. *drool*
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Date: 2004-01-13 03:54 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-01-13 04:01 am (UTC)Cool - I might get that one next. Didn't know you liked him too...
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Date: 2004-01-14 02:23 am (UTC)He's by far my favourite Ambient group.
For some reason I assumed I'd told you about him. :P
This whole thread is borne of delusions!
Well, suffice it to say, Substrata is not to be missed.