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cybermuleDREAM : wandering around Bath in the darkness, trying to fill a bottle of water from every fountain. There were a lot more fountains than I actually remembered in Bath. My dad was waiting for me to have filled the bottle(*).
Oh - and a comment elsewhere made me remember one of the dreams I had forgotten - in that dream, I was trekking across some mountains with Aragorn. Handy on all sorts of levels, eh? These mountains were kind of like salt deserts, white and sparkling and arid. The memory's a funny thing...
(*)I'm having a lot of vaguely unpleasant dreams involving missing my dad at the moment, and my psychoemotional health is generally poor - Monday evening I cried on the bus journey all the way from Bristol to Yate :( Not like me at all - I'm emotional, but fairly quiet and reserved. All I can remember thinking is how much I wanted to go back to being little, to being one of the kids I could see in lit-up houses, eating tea, doing homework and watching TV. Slept from about 8 PM to about 9 AM on Tuesday, and after throwing up my toast decided to take a day off sick. I need to take more care of myself - I've plunged into a period of ascetism and self-determination. More spoiling of myself is needed, even if it is silly and frivolous :)
Oh - and a comment elsewhere made me remember one of the dreams I had forgotten - in that dream, I was trekking across some mountains with Aragorn. Handy on all sorts of levels, eh? These mountains were kind of like salt deserts, white and sparkling and arid. The memory's a funny thing...
(*)I'm having a lot of vaguely unpleasant dreams involving missing my dad at the moment, and my psychoemotional health is generally poor - Monday evening I cried on the bus journey all the way from Bristol to Yate :( Not like me at all - I'm emotional, but fairly quiet and reserved. All I can remember thinking is how much I wanted to go back to being little, to being one of the kids I could see in lit-up houses, eating tea, doing homework and watching TV. Slept from about 8 PM to about 9 AM on Tuesday, and after throwing up my toast decided to take a day off sick. I need to take more care of myself - I've plunged into a period of ascetism and self-determination. More spoiling of myself is needed, even if it is silly and frivolous :)
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Date: 2004-02-13 11:00 am (UTC)Freestyling eating is cool too. I find I am unable to eat more than 2 meals this way.
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Date: 2004-02-14 10:37 am (UTC)And yeah - I find I eat far less these days. It's good to dissociate "food as fuel" from food as a ritual or habit. I started doing that to lose weight, now I just reckon that it has to be a good thing to just run on a reasonably small amount of clean-burning fuel. Plus, I've totally lost my taste for sugary and fatty things. The down side is that I've become a total spice-addict!
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Date: 2004-02-18 01:41 pm (UTC)I don't buy any of it anymore, mostly because I go through the box of sweets/junkfood in a day if I do. If I'm at someone else's place though, I cannot resist.
It's a good thing I can somehow resist buying the stuff when I'm in the grocery store (price?), because I'd be very unhealthy. :)
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Date: 2004-02-19 07:31 am (UTC)LOL - I know exactly what you mean. I've never had much of a taste for chocolate or sugar, but put a bag of crisps in front of me and they'll be gone within an hour. And yeah - although I mostly resist in my own home, my brother is a total snack food addict (eating vegetables, pasta or rice all give him "gut ache"), so I usually munch out at his place. Plus we're generally slightly drunk or stoned, and that inevitably leads to munchies.