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cybermuleDREAM : wandering around Bath in the darkness, trying to fill a bottle of water from every fountain. There were a lot more fountains than I actually remembered in Bath. My dad was waiting for me to have filled the bottle(*).
Oh - and a comment elsewhere made me remember one of the dreams I had forgotten - in that dream, I was trekking across some mountains with Aragorn. Handy on all sorts of levels, eh? These mountains were kind of like salt deserts, white and sparkling and arid. The memory's a funny thing...
(*)I'm having a lot of vaguely unpleasant dreams involving missing my dad at the moment, and my psychoemotional health is generally poor - Monday evening I cried on the bus journey all the way from Bristol to Yate :( Not like me at all - I'm emotional, but fairly quiet and reserved. All I can remember thinking is how much I wanted to go back to being little, to being one of the kids I could see in lit-up houses, eating tea, doing homework and watching TV. Slept from about 8 PM to about 9 AM on Tuesday, and after throwing up my toast decided to take a day off sick. I need to take more care of myself - I've plunged into a period of ascetism and self-determination. More spoiling of myself is needed, even if it is silly and frivolous :)
Oh - and a comment elsewhere made me remember one of the dreams I had forgotten - in that dream, I was trekking across some mountains with Aragorn. Handy on all sorts of levels, eh? These mountains were kind of like salt deserts, white and sparkling and arid. The memory's a funny thing...
(*)I'm having a lot of vaguely unpleasant dreams involving missing my dad at the moment, and my psychoemotional health is generally poor - Monday evening I cried on the bus journey all the way from Bristol to Yate :( Not like me at all - I'm emotional, but fairly quiet and reserved. All I can remember thinking is how much I wanted to go back to being little, to being one of the kids I could see in lit-up houses, eating tea, doing homework and watching TV. Slept from about 8 PM to about 9 AM on Tuesday, and after throwing up my toast decided to take a day off sick. I need to take more care of myself - I've plunged into a period of ascetism and self-determination. More spoiling of myself is needed, even if it is silly and frivolous :)
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Date: 2004-02-11 06:34 am (UTC)Awww...hey, ***SUPER-HUGS*** :)
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Date: 2004-02-12 02:31 am (UTC)*hugs back*
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Date: 2004-02-11 07:24 am (UTC)The memory's a funny thing...
Indeed, all our experiences seem locked up in compartments somewhere, and some keys are very hard to find.
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Date: 2004-02-12 02:37 am (UTC)some keys are very hard to find.
Mmm - that fascinates me. I was wondering whether *everything* is stored in their somewhere - if not, how does the brain sort and reject stuff. If so, how do I get at it? Meditation? Hypnosis? Drugs?
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Date: 2004-02-13 05:29 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2004-02-11 08:00 am (UTC)Don't dreams do funny things? Can get annoying....
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Date: 2004-02-12 07:11 am (UTC)Thanks :) I'm just putting a bit too much pressure on myself at the moment, to try and not have issues. Generally has the opposite effect :P I'll look after myself a bit better...
I'll probably go through that in a month when my mom's b-day rolls around
We're on the same time-frame. I'm not looking forward to Dad's birthday at all :( Oh well - it all passes I guess.
Don't dreams do funny things?
Yeah - that's what I meant by not letting your "nightmare" get to you. Dreams can totally scupper your mood for the day, IMO.
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Date: 2004-02-12 10:05 am (UTC)Reality can totally scupper your mood for your dreams, IMO.
LOL that sounded better in my mind. :)
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Date: 2004-02-13 05:31 am (UTC)Bah!
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Date: 2004-02-13 11:00 am (UTC)Freestyling eating is cool too. I find I am unable to eat more than 2 meals this way.
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Date: 2004-02-14 10:37 am (UTC)And yeah - I find I eat far less these days. It's good to dissociate "food as fuel" from food as a ritual or habit. I started doing that to lose weight, now I just reckon that it has to be a good thing to just run on a reasonably small amount of clean-burning fuel. Plus, I've totally lost my taste for sugary and fatty things. The down side is that I've become a total spice-addict!
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Date: 2004-02-18 01:41 pm (UTC)I don't buy any of it anymore, mostly because I go through the box of sweets/junkfood in a day if I do. If I'm at someone else's place though, I cannot resist.
It's a good thing I can somehow resist buying the stuff when I'm in the grocery store (price?), because I'd be very unhealthy. :)
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Date: 2004-02-19 07:31 am (UTC)LOL - I know exactly what you mean. I've never had much of a taste for chocolate or sugar, but put a bag of crisps in front of me and they'll be gone within an hour. And yeah - although I mostly resist in my own home, my brother is a total snack food addict (eating vegetables, pasta or rice all give him "gut ache"), so I usually munch out at his place. Plus we're generally slightly drunk or stoned, and that inevitably leads to munchies.
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Date: 2004-02-13 11:03 am (UTC)2 meals a day that is.
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Date: 2004-02-12 10:32 am (UTC)They don't bother me until they come true. Then I'm a little mussed up for a couple hours...
We're on the same time-frame.
What are you, the British, Female equivalent of me? That's just creepy...
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Date: 2004-02-13 05:33 am (UTC)Hahah - yeah. I'm Lee Jason from St. Anthony's, United Kindgdom.
*grins*
All right, now it's getting disturbing!
Re: All right, now it's getting disturbing!
Date: 2004-02-14 12:13 pm (UTC)Do you think anti-elfkings are also being created at the same rate? Maybe we'll reach some sort of critical population of his clones, then they'll start colliding with their opposites and cancelling each other out. Although that means we can only realistically expect an equilibrium density, at best!