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[cybermule]

Not in a very happy mood - I think I've just run out of energy for dealing with the world :( This is mainly my own fault for being over-sensitive - I know that - but mostly I just feel like I'm the only person who gives a shit about things that really seem to matter. Or maybe it's just me going mad, and none of it really matters at all *shrugs* I just don't know any more - don't know whether to keep on fighting for what I think is right, or to just give up and make sure everything is peachy for me like so many other people seem to do.

Blah. I'm just getting stressed and depressed. I shouldn't really take any notice of people telling me how to run my life, but they're so good at making me feel bad :( And now I just want to hide under my duvet with my cat sitting on my stomach and read a good book. And I still have 7 hours and 40 minutes of work where I just want to cry...

I'm OK really - just depressed. I have some good weekend stuff to write - I'll do it later, after bloody office Christmas lunch.

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Re: Copycat!

[unsane1.livejournal.com]

People don't always directly ask me to do stuff, but it just ends up that I feel obliged to help them out.


Sounds like you need to become less nice/more selfish. :)

Re: Copycat!

[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Heh - that makes me seem nicer than I am. I just seem to get stuck with the dependent types in life - I hope that if I help them once, next time they'll sort themselves out. But they don't. And it's a zero-sum game...I burn myself out on those people, and people I actually truly and voluntarily love generally catch the flack - I'm grumpy or drained or depressed or just not around as much as I'd like to be :(