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cybermuleI'm bored. Really and truly don't feel like doing anything. Which means that more than likely I'll end up getting boxed and watching TV *grumble*
Oh - and either me or my mother are going to have to be locked up in the near future. One of us is going to have to have some enforced sanity. Don't really mind if it's me, long as they let me have a net connection :P
Oh - and either me or my mother are going to have to be locked up in the near future. One of us is going to have to have some enforced sanity. Don't really mind if it's me, long as they let me have a net connection :P
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Date: 2003-09-17 06:31 pm (UTC)Heh that's the feeling I mentioned in some email. The times where I have a few beers to shut off the brain, avoiding going completely crazy.
getting boxed
What's that? It's becoming more and more evident that we speak two completely different languages. :P Half of the messages you write there's something I don't get lol.
either me or my mother are going to have to be locked up in the near future.
cool! those insane asylums look like an entertaining time... altho i'm going strictly by what they show in the movies :P
what do you mean though, is she driving you nuts from a distance?
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Date: 2003-09-17 06:33 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-09-18 04:49 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-09-18 07:30 am (UTC)I mostly get "I've been here before" feelings about places
That doesn't sound like deja-vu, unless you have never actually been to that place. I'm probly stating the obvious, it's just that you didn't specify and I jumped to conclusions.
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Date: 2003-09-18 08:34 am (UTC)*grins*
Yes, places I've never been before :P Otherwise I'd be having literal deja-vu. Was it Dylan who posted once about different sorts of deja-vu? Like rien-vu, or something? Can't remember the exact phrases, but I was interested at the time. I think more than just places, it's a whole vibe/atmosphere/situation that gives me the feeling. Something about using peripheral senses seems to hit a strange bit of my brain circuitry.
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Date: 2003-09-18 08:45 am (UTC)Dunno, I've never heard of different types of deja-vu before. Interesting.
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Date: 2003-09-18 08:59 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2003-09-18 04:41 am (UTC)*nods* I remember that one - it's still hanging around somewhere for possible future answering. And yeah, I had some wine and a spliff to chill myself out. I hate being bored - i always have plenty to do and think, so it's usually a symptom of being wound-up over something.
Half of the messages you write there's something I don't get lol.
Heheh - you can just ask, although, to be fair, it's probably just my wrting style. I did find it hard to make myself understood when I was in the US - was counting on Canadians to be more sane :P
Boxed = wasted, hammered, stoned, wrecked :)
altho i'm going strictly by what they show in the movies :P
Yah - I think they've stopped the fishing trips, and there are no longer heavy things for native Americans to throw through windows :)
what do you mean though, is she driving you nuts from a distance?
She doesn't live that far away, but she can't get around on her own in any way. And every day, she phones someone with a new problem. I find it really hard to deal with, as I'm torn between feeling sorry for her being incapable, and getting resentful that she's brought it on herself by boozing for 20+ years *sigh*
Anyway, really I think it's her that needs psychiatric supervision, but I'm willing to volunteer instead, just to get some peace :)
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Date: 2003-09-18 06:53 am (UTC)"boxed" seems to be SW-England slang - my friend in Birmingham uses "bladdered" or "wankered" for the same effect :)
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Date: 2003-09-18 08:41 am (UTC)yes, yes. me too.
so it's usually a symptom of being wound-up over something.
this tho, is not the case for me. i haven't quite figured it out actually. it might be because at some point i just overdose on information. i take so much in, and perhaps dont always let it simmer, let my mind grok it all. dunno.
I think they've stopped the fishing trips
ROFL!!!
on herself by boozing for 20+ years
to change the subject a bit, you've mentioned drinking alcohol. do u find yourself to have problems with it because of the parents, or is it more of a deterrent? like i have a friend who refuses to touch alcohol in any shape or form because his dad was alcoholic...
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Date: 2003-09-18 02:33 pm (UTC)Yup - that would be a likely theory. In my case, I think I just overdose on social stimulus, I think. I'm quite happy to just sit on the sofa and think, but when too much people-stuff intrudes, I can't concentrate and get fretful and bored. At least, that could be one reason, maybe.
Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-09-20 02:39 am (UTC)I went through a phase of not drinking "on principle", but these days I do drink whenever I feel like it. I just don't feel like it very often - I don't know if that is conscious (TBH, I find being drunk a bit dull) or sub-conscious (I'm avoiding it because of my parents). I also get bored of most drugs if I have them for a long time - that level of stimulation just becomes normal and not interesting any more.
I guess I also lump it together with heroin and crack as the three drugs that are likely to make people boring and/or assholes, and generally leave them alone for that reason. I'm not saying that every alholic or addict pisses me off, just that those three drugs seem to have a good chance of making life a bit thoughtless and dull. I don't choose friends by whether they drink or use certain drugs, but I do tend to avoid people who regularly become unpleasant when intoxicated.
What are your thoughts on the subject, anyway? Are there psychotropic lines that you won't cross?
Re: Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-09-25 12:11 am (UTC)My current blacklist covers many substances, but all entries are subject to change in the future. I don't like to overdo it with alcohol, cause it just seems unhealthy. But I do like to have a few beers once in a while.
I'm very disinterested in any substances that have blatant bad side-effects, or that are physically addictive. Everything from Heroin/Opium, Crack/Cocaine, Amphetamines, Absinthe, drink/hangover, Tobacco, Caffeine, GHB, Ecstasy, DXM, Ketamine, Datura...
Looking at what does interest me, it seems I'm almost exclusively interested in psychedelics. It's interesting that none of them seem to have any side-effects or addictive qualities. Perhaps I am projecting qualities onto them because they are what interest me? Dunno...
A lot of substances just don't attract me whatsoever. I have no interest in the effects provided by stimulants like speed or coke. I have no desire to feel good 24/7, and just be numb, like with opium or being a pothead. I don't need to be relieved from depression with a dose of ecstasy. I guess I just go for what suits my needs. Which is probly what everyone does. I only hope that I've lucked out and enjoy things that don't come with any negatives, rather than imagining they don't have any such problems.
Re: Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-10-11 11:55 am (UTC)Re: Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-10-12 12:39 am (UTC)heh, i've never even been offered about 2/3 of that blacklist. ;) but i could have had easy access to all but heroin and ketamine at certain times had i wanted any of them. dxm is probly the easiest, it's in cough medicine. nasty side-effects and permanent damage tho, iirc.
i've read up on most of them tho, out of curiosity to know if anything sounded good, to see what ppl addicted to certain ones are facing, why they are doing it, etc. also resulted in me not being the type of person who doesn't know the difference between acid and crack, which is all too common.
Re: Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-10-14 04:14 am (UTC)heh - I just live in the drug epicentre of the UK.
dxm is probly the easiest
wassat?
it's in cough medicine. nasty side-effects and permanent damage tho, iirc.
*sigh* When will ppl learn that nothing you can buy over the chemist's counter is going to be any fun? :P
Re: Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-10-14 11:07 pm (UTC)http://www.erowid.org/chemicals/dxm/dxm_effects.shtml
wow those negative effects sure do outweigh the positive imo. and they dont even include addiction.
Re: Took me a day or two to think about this one...
Date: 2003-10-16 12:23 pm (UTC)Aha - should have guessed that site :D Thanks.
Even some of the "neutral" effects don't look so great. And I certainly don't want more isolation *shudder*