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[cybermule]

LATE EDIT TO AVOID POSTAHOLISM - someone lent me their Eddie Izzard "Sexie" DVD *yay-bounce*... extremely funny androgynous men - it just doesn't get better than that 8D


Heheh - there's a huge pool on the university campus, next to the path which I use to walk from the train station to work. Normally there's just a tiny culvert-type thing, but with all the recent rain, it's backed up and made quite a decent size pool :)

I started taking St John's Wort again - maybe it's just a placebo, but without it, I seemed to descend into a spiral of crankiness and bad psychological habits. I'll try again on the emotional reprogramming, then give up the herbal happy pills. Much better plan... *nods firmly*

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[cybermule.livejournal.com]

You know - that's exactly how I feel about it! I just feel that I deal with life better when I'm taking the tablets. Recently I've become so bitter and bad-tempered and cranky with life... it's not me, and I hate it in myself. I won't take pharmaceutical anti-depressants, and as I said above, I'd like to reprogram my brain to be happy on its own, but unti then I think I'll be sticking with the tablets :)

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[cleverkat.livejournal.com]

Yeah. I took the prescription anti-depressants for a while and hated how robotic I felt. I'd rather be cranky and bitter and occasionally sad rather than feel nothing at all. And they have so many unpleasant side effects, too.
I've been trying to learn how to be less unhappy and angry at everything, so I understand what you're going through. Good luck!

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[cybermule.livejournal.com]

Thank you - I really appreciated that reply :) Sometimes it's very easy to feel a bit hopeless, like you'er the only person who gets depressed or cranky. And the bitter angriness is something I particularly hate in myself :(( I think you totally hit the nail on the head - I'd rather have the extremes (including the lows), than be all muffled up emotionally. As for the anti-depressants - well, I watched my dad take every which kind of happy-tablet for 30 years, and I barely saw him happy. So I'd rather just take my own chances :)